Change

In about 2 weeks I will be saying "good bye" to one of the people I love most in this world. It's not a "good bye" so much as an "until we meet again." Still, it makes me very sad. I'm not looking forward to it at all. My roommate is moving to Texas to finish up her doctorate. Also, she joined the Air Force to do this...so that will be 4 years of her life. We've lived together for the majority of our years since we were roommates our freshman year of college in 2000. It makes me cry a little to think about my friend leaving. I don't want to think about it. But it will be here before I know it.
She's my person! The one I tell things to, run stuff past. The person I can count on. The person I've had some of my very best times with. The person who can remember things about me that I forget! The person who can speak my sentences at the same time as me. The person who leads me out of my comfort zone, the person who is my comfort zone. She brings out my craziness. We share secrets, she can make me laugh till I cry. She even makes me a better person. She is my heterosexual life partner. When we are old and single we will be the women that people say are lesbians, and who own about 18 cats.
I know it's not easy for her. To move to a new place where you know no one. I'm sure she's scared and nervous and had a thousand second thoughts. I'll be able to visit her in Texas fairly often I suppose, and I will make such an effort. Plus, I'll actually have someone to talk to on the phone once in a while.
I will be moving to the other side of town, closer to work, everyone I know, my family, and chiropractor! I will have a new roommate, another friend. I'm a little apprehensive about it, don't know why, but I am. I think it will be good though.
So what do I do with this change? Embrace it? Shirk away from it? I can't really avoid it. We deal with change every day, but when we have to deal with big things that we don't like suddenly we come up with the idea that change is unwelcome.
So that's my state of mind. I don't want to go to work because I want to be home and spend time with my friend while I can, but I'm already taking vacation this month, so I have to think about money too. *sigh* I really feel like part of my heart will be in Texas.