Welcome to the Neighborhood!

I don't really have anything to say. I was looking through people's blogs and what not and some of my old ones. I'm an idiot! I like to share what I think are the more interesting things going on with me....it's one way people I don't see so often can keep up. Actually I share the only interesting things in my life. :-)
Anyway, I look at things other people write about and compare it with myself and reflect on what I'm doing. It's almost constantly on my mind lately what I'm doing and where I am. I just don't know if I'm happy with everything. I'm not unhappy necessarily. I'm in a grey area, on the fence, eating vanilla ice cream, mediocre. I still enjoy my job, but I'm starting to think about moving on to something else. I want my benefits for a little longer though! I may start looking for something else in the company, but I think I'll miss flying. I think I may stick with it for another year tops. We'll see.
I don't feel like I'm doing much with myself. Don't do much at work. Come home and stay in bed too long and stay up too late (same when I'm work, but working until 12 am doesn't help that!). I've been working on running or doing some other type of physical activity every day. That's good. I'm glad I've taken up geocaching. It gives me something to do. But it's more fun if I have someone to go with! I haven't done too many yet. It's so cold! But I like it.
It's hard to get into things with my constantly changing schedule, and when I'm only home a couple days a week. But I feel the need for some kind of fellowship with some God lovin' people. I haven't had the chance to go to church for a while, but even when I do I don't have any connection with the people there. I don't know any of them. I need an outlet for service in some way or another. Again kind of intimidating by yourself with strangers. I'd be ok with just doing something once in a while. It doesn' t have to be every week or anything. But I need to start looking into something. Ideas?
I think doing something like that would help me with the way that I feel about my relationship with God. Still feel it's just stagnant - over 2 years that this has been going on. I realize things aren't always rainbows and bubblegum in relationships. It's been a pretty long desert time though! Granted, not forty years or anything. It doesn't help that it seems I have a problem with my discipline in improving in areas that I feel like need improvement (which are many right now). I try to work on things, but then I'm not so good at it. This is why we need community. It's tough on your own! On top of that, my thoughts on some things have been changing. Or at least I have questions about them. Examining previous beliefs over a variety of things - a lot of it is still up in the air. I don't know if I'll get a solid answer on some of them ever! When you're not sure what you think about things that just puts you into another place. But I'm confident that growth will spring from this - sometime, someway.
Going back to the beginning of this post. I write about stupid things. It's still nice to tell people what's going on and what I'm doing. But I think that I leave out more important and deep things too often. Maybe because I don't feel like sharing that kind of stuff with whoever reads this. But sometimes it's gotta be good for you, right? I don't often write about God or my faith, and that's an important part of my life. I fear offending people. I hardly think I'm a Christian "freak" or overbearing or pushy or anything along those lines. I don't want people to think I'm like that because those people are annoying. I don't want to turn anyone off to God by something that I do. But it wouldn't hurt to talk about something that is important to me once in a while. Can you handle it?
Well here I am on blogspot now! Woo! I've got to go to bed! My sleep schedule is royally screwed up! (I wish I had a reading/watching/listening thing!)